Thursday, January 21, 2010

Depressing (Depressed) Post

*Caution - Depressing post ahead!*


With every moment of awareness, there's this nagging thought - that even though things are perfectly amazing around me; there's something fundamentally wrong in me, about me. By what age do people normally become aware of what it is that they want to do with their lives? Because I have no idea what I want with mine! This sense of aimlessness is constantly painful, to say the least.


Not that I'm not doing well enough in whatever it is I do. But when I stop and ask myself, "Is this what I want to do all my life?", the answer is always a No. But the problem is, I do not know doing what could change that answer to a Yes!


Are consultants really wise enough to know what I don't know about myself? Can they help? Or do I just need a break? There's really nothing that seems to be helping me out of this senselessness - no thought sounds thoughtful enough, nothing helps me sustain my fleeting moments of happiness.


Please help! Suggest something/anything that can get me out of this awefully gloomy state of mind. :(

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16 comments:

....... said...

I guess you need a really long long break..

Kanupriya said...

I don't know ... it might help for the time being, but definitely not in the wrong run.

....... said...

A long peaceful break may help you in deciding what you need in long run...

Kanupriya said...

(haha, I wrote "wrong run" earlier :P) ... guess I'm in the wrong run indeed!
anyway, yeah, that might be possible ... but I don't know if I can handle a long break!

Kumar Bibek said...

It's simple, Just don't stop and ask...It has worked for me.

Kanupriya said...

@Kumar Bibek:
I think it's in one's nature to stop and ask what one's been doing. To not do so would be to defy one's inner voice :)

MagnaMater said...

Are you ok now? Or still contemplating with the thoughts?

Nishu said...

read some comedy novel.

P.G.Woodhouse or Douglas Adams.

They surely take off ones focus from meaning/goal of life.

Kanupriya said...

@Kimi:
thanks, am ok now .. thankfully these phases don't last long with me! :)

@Nishu:
will surely try something of this kind the next time around!

JustSo said...

hmm, one of these really boring sessions I attended (or was forced to attend) opened with this line - "if you are here searching for the meaning of life, then leave. For life, is meaningless.".

He then went on to explain a lot ofother things which extracted heavy snores from me, but believe me, nothing more truer than that statement up there. So dont worry, your boat isnt empty - lotsa people wondering what happened that they ended up in this world. :)

jj said...

man mein aise khayal aayein to so jaana chahiye. warna bilkul hi mann na lage to kaam chodd ke kuch naya bhi kara ja sakta hai, coffee shop khol le, ya ghar pe beer banani chaalu kar de

Sandi said...

Join the peace corp... or do a mission trip... it helped my daughter

Purvi Misal said...

How are you now?
what did you eventually end up doing?
and how?
it's been 3 years right

Kanupriya said...

Hi Purvi! How did you chance upon such an old blog? :-o

Well let's just say that I have resigned to the ways of life, and am taking it one page at a time :)

Purvi Misal said...

I myself have no idea how I came across this blog. But I kept reading all. very interesting I must say. :)

Kanupriya said...

Thanks! Glad you liked it :)

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